this is MY LIFE..
STAY ONLI if u care..
GET LOST if u dun..
basically thats ME!!!
this is MY LIFE..
STAY ONLI if u care..
GET LOST if u dun..
basically thats ME!!!
havent been blogging these few days.. coz very lazy la.. last saturday didnt attend bible study. was late. lol. went for service.. seeing all the married couples renewing their vows.. wow.. so touching.. almost cried. after service.. i made baby angry. coz i hit him very hard on his stomach.. den he gt so pissed off and pushed away my hand when i try to apologise to him. and i gt so sad. and i couldnt control my emotions and cried. i juz follow him and took my bag and walk off without telling anybody. den baby came and chase after me. and realise that im weeping.. he pulled me to a corner and comfort me. and he even apologise to me even though it wasnt his fault.. it make me realise that it was always me that is being so unreasonable and always bullying him den get angry with him and make him look like the one who is at fault.. and he jus hugged me tightly and keep apologising to me.. after tat i quickly clear up my tears and went off to find our members. had dinner @ bedok85. went home after tat. went for service on sunday. last lesson on Making Marriage Works series.. once again seein all the married couples renewing their vows... it is so touching... after service, baby went to get a stalk of rose fer me.. so sweet... but i keep sayin him no sincerity... lolx!!!! and after tat we get another 1 fer sarah.. =) went for iceskating for cell grp outin. and it scared the hell out of me.!!! i keep screaming and laughing like a dolphin.. ha!!!~and i keep falling down... i almost cried there.. coz i too scared le... was super tired after that.... fall aslp while the rest eating dessert... den baby sent me home first.... went to sch on monday. boring la. after that went to coffeeclub and eat. lol.. went back fer lesson... den go back fer work... did closing.. was super tired.... work was fine. nth much.. haa!!!tuesday went fer lesson fer 1hr.. den go hme. lol... suppose to mit singyee to have dessets @ coffeeclub.. but cant get her..... grrrr!!!! den i juz went home... had my 2nd last meal... KFC 2pieces chicken.... l0l..!!!! den awhile later fell aslp... haa!!! wake up @ ard 8pm and had my last meal......... slp @ ard 1230am.....didnt have any water intake since 1140pm.. went for wednesday morning lesson.. waked baby up... but he didnt pick up my call even after my 10mins of flooding... ended up i waked his sister up.. so paiseh... den i after tat couldnt realli get into slp... and toss ard... rest a while.. wake up @ ard 710am and get ready fer lesson... had my surgery after lesson.. ard 1150am.. was put under general anaesticia.... and i slp all the way... cool!! haa~~ but the after effect is bad!!!!!! very giddy... haa!!! went hme after tat and fell aslp... swallow porridge... l0l and had half tub of icecream!!!!!!!!!!!!! haa~~~ slp @ ard 2am... had my hair cut! hee.... wake my baby up.. but agin.. he didnt wake up.. lolx... and i fell aslp calling him!!! lolx... and i slp slp slp all the way till 2pm~~ haa!!!! wake up... online till nw.. watching youtube the whole day... did nth much.. swallow porridge again... and finish de icecream.. whooo!!!! fell aslp @ ard 7+pm... wake up @ ard 9pm.. haa!!!~~~~ and here i m blogginG!!! =) seriously, i miss my baby... missed his hugs and kisses... however this wk pass very fast.. i'll be able to see him tmr le!!!! yeah~~~~~ hee!!!! and i realli loOking forward for the day fer me to go remove stitches.. l0l.. so tat i can realli eaT!!! haa~~~ and also.. there was this day... was on the phone with baby. didnt know why.. but we juz talk abt me crying on saturday.. actually it wasnt the first time that i cried.. juz tat before that.. i juz keep to myself and try to calm myself down.. so was telling baby abt it.. and told him actually it is very easy to see tat i am unstable and wanna cry kind... coz i rarely become very quiet suddenly... like one moment super hyper.. nxt moment super quiet.. as if i dun exist kind... well... the onli possibility is becoz i feel like crying or im actually very tired... after hearing that.. my baby actually cried.. coz he blame himself for always making me sad and even make me cry.. i felt so touched.. and i cry together with him. i reali duno why did i actually cry.. but tears jus rolled down.. seriously.. i think is his sincerity that touched me.. and having sometimes, some ppl juz doubt the relationship between the 2 of us.. i kind of get pissed off.. firstly, it is realli none of their business and secondly, they are not me. they have seen hw much he had done fer me.. and hw he always give in to me when i start to anyhow throw my temper and be unreasonable.. he had always been so nice to me.. trying hard to surprise me.. but always kana exposed by me.. haa!! =x but nevertheless... no words can describe how much i love him. no reasons can explain my love for him. no instrument can measure the love i had for him. nothing.. nothing in this world can ever replace him.. my one and only baby, my one and only cow, my silly old cow... =)
oops.! once again laziness ruled over me.. haven been blogging. mainly becoz also very busy.. working~~ lol...last friday. workin also. 12noon to 430pm. im totally drench. basically that day is a rotting day. lol. after work went for cell grp. baby didnt come coz he gt some dinner thing. went home after tat. saturday service. after service went to airport to meet up with jonathan. den gO hme. super tired. sunday. attend morning service oso. after that went make-up cell with baby. den gO hme. had performance. boring. monday. work. doing bar. hmm.. actually nt realli.. haa~~~ had fun la.. tuesday. doing br oso. closing by myself~ coOOL~~~~~ haa!! stress... lolx..wednesday. no work. suppose to gO sch pay fees. but ended up too lazy. so nv... ended up mit up my baby. had dinner with him @ Bugis.. after tat walk ard... ended up @ National Library reading magazine. den went home. thursday. workin opening shift. Vincent is late again. lol~~~ doing bar. wah. super slack. sit down there slp. read magazine. suan Vincent. lolx.!~ totally nth to do. but the time pass very fast. had role-play. grRR! sucks. afterwhich rush down to SP to pay the fees! finally. went back to Holland Village and mit up with baby... had dinner there. feeling very unwell.. breaking into cold sweats... coz super tired... the nite b4 i slept @ 4+am.... anyway.. work again... from 8pm to closing. totally stoning... baby came and had Ice Coffee... haa!!! baby.. not i dO de... lol.. is my fren... hmmm.. den serve him.. brought him into coffeeclub and all of them keep smiling @ me.. those sheepish smile.. and even got ppl thought he is my brother~~~ saying coz we loOk alike~~~ lolx!!! after that... Vincent knock off.. and he become a customer.. lolx!!! and his friend is so the funny.. she wanted to have strawberry shortcake and she translate it to chinese..草莓短蛋糕.... i almost faint on the spot... lolx!!!! went home... slp @ ard 3am...friday.. work morning shift again~~~... tiring... till 530pm... stayed there till ard 630pm... had my dinner... and ordered some lite bites.. calamari rings and polenta chix bits.. shared with Qixian, Tom, Dominic. haa!!!! they are workin @ that time. and i already clock-out. having their break anyway.. after which. mit up with baby. went for cell grp. im soso tired that i fell aslp on the bus to Esley hse. and i fell aslp @ her hse!!! lolx!!!!~~ after cell grp. went home. slp @ ard 1am~~~ haa!!!!
training on tuesday is oK. work is fine too. extend my working hours till closing due to the lack of ppl. closin was super fast. everything by 1210am was already finished. thus we left @ ard 1240am. reach hme. bath. and watch dvd awhile den quickly slp le.
suppose to gO baby's hse. but baby's mum was at home again~ lolx. thus we decided to juz mit up and go out walk.... had lunch @ army market. took a bus to bugis. walk ard. den to town to loOk for baobei Esley. hme sweet hme. had subway fer dinner. finish watchin the dvd. so touching. cried~ lolx... slp @ ard 3+am.
wake my baby up @ 554am. and he wake me up @ 10am. went to work. had fun. but tiring. extend till 7pm. baby came n fetched me. hee! went to meet baobei Esley @ JP. had dinner @ jurong church. had the dried banmian~ yeah!! it is nt the banmian tat im allegic to! lolx. went Pioneer Mall rotx ard. hme sweet hme. rots rots rots. watch tv coz no more dvd le. ha..i realli feel very fortunate to have baby in my life. he is forever so loving to me. and he will always nag me for slping late and skipping meals. thanks. he will always give in to me even when it is my fault. thanks baby.oh ya. result is out. but i cant check. however Jialin saw my result in the school's notice board. statin that i pass everything! whoots! so.. meaning i no more repeating! haa~~~ =) yeaH!!!
well. suppose to wake up earlier to go to baby's hse and continue my afternoon nap. lolx. but ended up baby's mum was at home. thus we decided to mit up.mit baby 4pm @ Bugis. i had my lunch. den baby had popiah. after which we went to take neoprint~ haa!! actually baby dun like to take neoprint. but he still took it with me. haa!!! thanks baby. hmm. shall post them up soon. haa!! took bus to Holland Village. put my bag @ Coffeeclub. den after that went to rot ard with baby. he keep whackin me.. grrr!!!! used to be me that is always bullying u. biting him, hitting him, pushing him.... ha! nw he takin revenge sia!! faint~~ lolx. start work @ 7pm. baby came and had a drink. hee!!!~...overall work is okay. juz that duno issit coz 2nd floor is packed with ppl. thus the aircon is nt that strong. or issit that the aircon nt working. lol. i was sweating all over. lol. and im doing food runner. thus... 2nd level to 3rd level to 2nd level to 1st level.. whatever.!! ha!!~~........went home. took 7 to clementi with Qixian and Dominic. mit Justin and Ed @ Pioneer Mall mac for supper. after eating. talk rubbish fer a while. den i gO home. walk home alone.. T_T... so scary.. ha!!!~~~reach home. finish watching disc 5 and slp slp slp till juz nw 1pm den wake up! ha! now gt to prepare for work! bye~~~ had trainin @ 4pm...
finally camp is over. though it is tiring. but i enjoy it. fun. thanks to the camp comm ppl! u ppl done a great job! =)went hme on friday and slp.... wake up @ ard 445pm. ended up i couldnt make it to tanah merah to mit baby in time. so mit him @ Redhill. den waited fer the rest. went for cell grp. after that had dinner @ the redhill market. den go home. saturday. serve for choir. service is great. and i cant help but keep crying. indeed saying "i love you" to some ppl that hurts me are realli difficult. sayin these 3 words to my parents, my brother, my father side relatives. is so so difficult. heard from baby that he cried too. after service he came over and gave me a hug and peck on my forehead. =) and i felt so much better. after service went to GuoRong's bday celebration @ Pasir Ris Holiday Flat. so many ppl there. all dunO de.. eat a bit of things there. den took pic den go hme. baby took train with us. den alight @ Aljunied. we took de last train. slp on the train all the way. reach hme. HUNGRY~~~ so...... Mac Delivery~ haa! sunday. had work. 3pm till closing. almost 12hours. my legs are breakin. comments on the new full time staff shall not be made. yes. bad ones actually. ha!!... after work took the company cab back home. im the 2nd last to get off. suppose to be me. ha! but we make Vincent to be the last. coz he is de onli guy. lolx..reach home. check mails and stuffs... den bath.... slp @ ard 4am... tired sia.. and i juz wake up nt long ago. suppose to go to baby's hse. but his mummy @ home. ha~~~~ shall wait and see hw....still got work later. 7pm - 11pm. whoo~~ thank God sia. i this week no closing shift~ haa!!! lalalala~~~ thats all ba~~ bye!!!
have been in sch since tuesday. haven been seein baby since tuesday. haiz. so sad. den baby gonna be on stand by on Saturday. so might not be goin service. haiz... realli pray that he isnt activated la. haiz.. think this is the 2nd time that i didnt manage to mit up with baby for so long. ha!!! and i realli realli miss him. haiz....
sian.. have been in sch since tuesday. haiz... didnt slp on tuesday nite. slp thru out wednesday nite frm ard 1am till nxt day 1pm~ haa!!! tired la.. lolz.. watch dvd the whole afternoon. den had bbq steamboat @ marina. den back to sch. b4 that went to 7-11 @ clementi. coz all craving for alcohol. lolx. den here im. juz finish watchin the dvd and blogging nw. juz too boring~ haa! lolx..yeah~~~ baby. i miss u sooo much haiz......
hmm. bloggin in sch nw. ha! well coz having SPCO camp. hee.. very slpy leh. haa!!!~monday. 4th Sep 2006. our 1st month anniversary. times realli flies. ha!! but we didnt really celebrate it.. haiz. coz he cant take leave. anyway. wake up @ ard 12 in the afternoon. clear my room till neat neat. haa! den went to mit Xinjie & Wenna @ Orchard. walk ard fer a while. went aljunied mit my baby. accompany him fer dinner. den go hme. went clementi to buy shampoo and stuff for camp. hme sweet hme. watch dvd till almost 6am den slp.tuesday. wake up at ard 1plus. den pack my bag den go sch. reach ard 420pm. den went to work @ ard 530pm. tiring. 230am den reach back sch. den rotx... watch dvd thruout. ha! didnt slp...wednesday. bath @ ard 7am.. den slp awhile den go performance le. ha!! thruout today rot. practice. slp~ haa! yeah. den here i m blogging. nth to blog le. haa! bye~~~baby. i love u. i miss u so much. =( muacks!~ *hugs!
haven been blogging. super lazy. especially with my spoilt keyboard. lol. more lazy. haven been doing anything much actually. rottin at hme everyday. chiong o2jam~ lolx.. boliao sia!!!
last wkend is a very emotional wkend for me. pissed off. shall nt elaborate much. and i cried on sunday. ha! basically felt so NOT appreciated. and felt that i shouldnt be the 1 that gt reprimanded for an act of some others. as for the cg outing. not much comments abt it. and everything triggers off my emotional side juz liydat.. tears juz drop dwn without anybody realising it.. and i throw my temper @ my baby.. yes. im angry with my baby too. coz he didnt protect me when he was supposed to. and oso coz he kind of scolded me in a tone that is too fierce for me to take. and also coz he didnt send me hme. im soso tired and pissed off with everything and i can juz do nth and juz weep. but things gt cleared up between me and baby. and the words tat he said realli touched me alot. and once again. i weep. ha! this time in joy and happiness.
didnt manage to go to pioneer mall to help Ed celebrate his 26th bday! oops. sorry. lolx. happy bday anyway. gt scolded by my mum for being out everyday till wee hours. basically, i juz dun feel like stayin @ hme. to me, it aint a home. but a cage. but since im living under the roof of my parents. den i shall keep my mouth shut and listen to them.
monday. stayed at hme till ard 7pm and left hme for Bugis. mit up with SP POS ppl. and again. ive to answered for some problems. although it isnt my problem. but again. ive to answer for it. however in this case, i felt more willing to answer for it as it wasnt the kind of "person involved knows the consequences and other ppl will be dragged into it" problem. thus, im more den willing to answer for it. basically the gatherin is for post-celebration of Phileo's bday. had pastamania. den proceed to Paradiz Centre for pool session. left @ ard 1120pm.
tuesday. mit up my baby @ PS for movie. dragged him out of his hse. coz he having off. lolx. basically is becoz im too lazy to travel all the way to Aljunied to his hme. lolx. and i kind of regretted watchin the movie. Ghost Game. coz it is horrible. im so scared till i basically hug my baby thru out the movie and i keep pinching him! lolx. went hme by 174.wednesday. suppose to attend co prac. but both my sectional teacher and conductor are nt coming. so i stayed at hme and rot rot rot. mit up with Esley fer dinner @ LJS JP. bought a belt. went Pioneer Mall again and have some chats.thursday. wake up earli went back to Juying Secondary School and visit my teachers. Mr Lum and Mr Micheal. and i simply love Mr Lum. although he make me so malu... he shouted "Zhu Rong Ping!!" in the staff room and all the teachers turned and loOk @ me.. -_-"~ dotx.. anyway.. had long chats with them and managed to get their number. coz Mr Lum is leaving JYSS nxt june. dotx. went hme. and i was in a dilemma on whether shld i stay at hme or go to baby's hse. but im juz too tired and lazy to gO out so slpslpslp!... wake up and get ready for work. basically work is fine. and the supervisor Vincent is SHUAI.. but he is married. ha! and everything is goin very fine till this kuku customer trying to show their power. sucks! i dont care a damn on are u paying the blardy 10% service charge anot!! and for ur blardy info! im nt the 1 pocketing the 10%.. it is the company. duhx! cant u use ur pair of super duper f. big eyes see that im the onli pathetic soul on the floor and cant u juz wait for ur coffee patiently... -_-"~ grr. spoilt my day.anyway Singyee did something that make me keep laughin. when i was abt to leave. Vincent is smoking outside and he is askin whr do i live. so i juz reply him and wanted to leave. as i decide to walk the back alley... he gt curious and asked "hey whr u gng." so i juz pointed my way and turn and walked off. and Singyee replied "ohh~~ she gO park tou~~" diaoz.. i turned and loOk @ her with a "huh!!! diaodiaodiao~~~~" face.. and Vincent stared @ us with a "HUH!??!?!"~" face. well... the explanation i gt frm his face is either "huh. im asking whr u gng. y u gng this alley. den u tell me she go park tou for what?" or "huh.... park tou @ this kind of HOUR?!?!" and for goodness sake.. it is already 1120pm. ha!!!~ mit up with Esley @ Dover and went to Pioneer Mall fer supper.friday. wake up @ ard 145pm. did songsheet. and yes. with nth on it... and realli. nobody realise abt it. ha! see!~~~ hw appreciating is de cg. *dry laughing* mit Esley and Meifong for dinner @Gekpoh. den went JP. Esley buyin ring. and the Perlini Silver guy is so lame. ha! waited for baby and went for cg. actually wanted to go tanah merah and give baby a surprise. but im too late. grrr.. anyway... went to Pioneer Mall again after cg. mit Justin and Ed. played O2Jam. den go hme. tmr. having BS and service. nt sure gng whr after that. maybe juz have dinner den go hme. i nid rest. having work the nxt day frm 12-4. miting POS frens at ard 7 @ coffeeclub HV again to visit Singyee. thinking of what to do in the meantime. shall see hw. and i nid rest nw. bye bloggie.
baby. i love u for who u are. i dont love u with any reason. coz loving u doesnt need any reason. thanks for showing me so much care and concern and also the unconditional love from u.thanks baby. 1month is soon over. and i reali pray that we will continue counting the days, months or even years. love u baby.
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